I'm a little scared.

love this song called Today More Than Yesterday by Kim Jong Gook (:

Yes, another korean song but it's such amazing. It really makes sense, when one starts to fall in love it seems as if each day the feeling continues to build and build; today more than yesterday.

Oh and everyone should listen to Liang Shan Bo Yu Zhu Lie Ye.

I dislike hypocrites, they piss the hell out of me. If someone were to tell me they dislike a person and that they rather not be involved with them then they decide to talk and hang out with them like everything is fine again, it just pisses me off. But I guess I can't say anything bad about that since I'd probably do the same thing just because I would want to pretend that everything is really back to normal.

Today was my last Regents (finally), and while going home after playing some basketball I realized soemthing. It's always the same place where everything significant in my life begins and ends. Everything major that happened turned into a turning point for me, how odd. And now that sophomore year is over I find it wierd how I was just standing there, waiting to go home again. It's the same place where I really began High School life, the same place that started the happiness, the same place that everything began to change, and finally the place where everything ends.

Yeah, you tell me you're going to be there for me, forever. Yet at the same time you don't care at all. You rather hang out with other people than me, it's pretty obvious. You rather live your life happy with them than supporting me. It's fine, go ahead and leave me. You're not the first person to do that.

Sorry, I just had to get that out.

I decided to change the title of this post as well as add some things.

I've been a little scared recently, enough to make me feel a bit cold and also teary. I'm afraid to get annoyed at someone because it always seems to happen that I'm misunderstood. I feel as if I can't even get annoyed or angry at someone anymore. Isn't it normal for someone to feel this way at times? Maybe I blew it again. I think I did, and once again for reasons that seemingly was harmless.

I'm also afraid of my feelings, I'm scared of this one thing I'm feeling right now. If this continues and it grows stronger, this will not be a good thing. I hope this subdues.

Finally, I'm scared of making mistakes, even though I know how mistkaes happen I still make them... unknowingly.

Fuck.

Todays lyrics :

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you.

I need you like a heart needs a beat, but it's nothing new.

I loved with you a fire red, now it's turning blue

And you say sorry like the angel, heaven let me think was you.

But I'm afraid.