Throughout my life, I don't think I've ever established, really, being "best friends" with someone.
Maybe it's acknowledged now but never established.
Friends.
Sure, I have close friends. But at times one must stop to wonder, why are they close? Are they really close or do I just THINK they're close. Maybe they don't really care about you.
Yes, I see some of my friends as people I can trust. But at times I feel as if it's sketchy. Maybe it's just me and my ideal friendship's expectations just aren't met.
There's too much to list but I don't even know if I have friends that are worthwhile sometimes.
I've never received a Christmas present from a friend
I've never received a birthday present from a friend.
Matter of fact, now that I think of it, I've never received one in general.
No, I'm not asking for one. I honestly don't want anything, but I feel as if it would be a nice feeling in my heart if I had friends who actually cared enough to get something even if I don't want anything.
Yet has a friend done something for me that has touched my heart.
Friends.
Though I must admit, there is one friend who I miss dearly.
I really thought that, he or she, was truly a significant part of my life. And now, they're gone.
I feel like an asshole just thinking about what happened.
Friends.
Friendships are way too fragile. It's like a carton of eggs, if you don't handle it with care, it will break. It's quite unfortunate.
Arguments, revelations, disagreements, you name it. Anything can ruin a friendship.
How many times have you heard about a huge argument dividing friends?
How many times have you heard about the huge deal about "trust" dividing friends?
How many times have you heard about shit talking behind people's backs dividing friends?
How many times have you heard about a friend liking another close friend, and everything ends up in shambles, eventually resulting in a division of friends?
How many times have you heard about back stabbers?
Exactly. My point is made. All of these things are practically embedded in society nowadays.
It's disheartening, though, some of these things.
Friends.
Today's lyrics are from That's What Friends are For by Dionne Warwick and various artists.
And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember
Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
inspired from my post?
ReplyDeletei don't usually get gifts either! don't worry. sophmore year was the only time i more gifts than usual. on my birthday in freshman year, the only gift i got was a slice of cheesecake from my sort of close.. friend Carolina, but I didn't mind because I love her so much and she knows i love cake. In 8th grade, i got a small stuffed doll from my "best friends". yeah i only got small things or nothing, but i always give a lot to people. I also have a friend that doesnt have any close friends either. he barely receives any gifts, but he gives. So I guess you're not the only one.. better to have friends that aren't close than to have friends that get close, and break your heart for leaving
ReplyDeleteyes, inspired by your post.
ReplyDeleteeh, i shouldn't be complaining, your old friends seemed much worse.
but hey, at least you have great ones now.