Clearly not competent enough.

I've failed. Again. Completely rejected. Again.

I couldn't take it anymore. I felt it before it even happened but I kept going on because I told myself it was nothing and this was sacrifice at its zenith.

But no, my legs completely rejected the strenuous effort I put in.

Let me start from the beginning.

Yesterday was Varsity Basketball tryouts. I decided to go with my friend, just to try, for the hell of it. I don't know what made me but I guess playing for a team and being able to play organized basketball for once was extremely intriguing.

The first couple of drills were easy, I screwed up a little bit but that was mostly because it was my first tryout. We did some three on three match-ups after.

That's when everything went downhill.

First off, my two teammates would not pass the ball. They were black; go figure.

I had ONE shot for three games, and that was a three pointer which I took, and swished in despite my teammate repeatedly telling me to pass the ball.

Then I felt a twinge in my calves. I knew I couldn't take it much longer but I hoped it would go away.

After, we did some free throw drills. Easy enough, I had rest for my calves. Everyone had to run sprints because they missed free throws. On my fourth one, I felt it. My calves gave up on me and completely cramped up. There wasn't much I could do except lay on the floor trying to deal with the pain. Thankfully my other friend happened to be there and stretched out my leg.

I was unable to move for a good ten to fifteen minutes. I dragged myself down to the locker room and I knew that my attempt for the Varsity team this year was over.

That was that, one and done. I was only there for the first day of tryouts, there were supposed to be two more left.

But I know I rather do something else. Sing, dance, whatever. I really want to do something involved with music.

I put music as a major on my PSAT scantron today anyways.

Maybe next year.

Today's lyrics are from Fireflies - Owl City. Man Owl City is amazing , I don't know how this guy comes up with these awesome songs. He writes about the most random thing!

You would not believe your eyes

If ten million fireflies

Lit up the world as I fell asleep

Cause they fill the open air

and leave teardrops everywhere

You'd think me rude but I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe that

Planet Earth turns slowly

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep

Cause everything is never as it seems

Cause I get a thousand hugs

From ten thousand lightning bugs

As they try to teach me how to dance