How Can I Be Vindicated?

2:30 AM.

So here I am, once again still up at 2:30. Except whats different about this night? I'm not talking to the one person I would almost always be talking to at around this time.

What happened? One simple misunderstanding from a joke to a serious insult.

Redemption, that is what I need right now; more importantly a vindication. I can't believe its been one whole week, how have I lived through this?

I miss it so much.

Yes I miss you, the one person who would always listen, who was there for me, who always signed off saying "feel better" when i felt like shit. I felt like I've been a bad friend at times, and I still hope you're willing to give me another chance. You're definatly one of the people I always come back to.

Unexpected but I miss you also. Always so happy and cheerful, I don't think I've ever really seen you sad or annoyed. You're always in a good mood with the LOL and LMAOs. I miss the laughter and the carefree you.

Now you, what is there to say ? I've dealt with quite a lot of friend problems but this is unique. I miss the talking, the calls, and most importantly the great times we had. Even though you feel like you can't forgive me, I still hope you will because I care. 

However, I can't believe I've sacrificed so much...How many things have I done for you?

And you're still unable to forgive me on such an excusable argument? I can't believe it.

Perhaps I'll let the senses come to you, I'll wait it out. 

Unfortunately I've done all I can to make reparations; yet nothing is back to normal. It's about time I see some results for something I actually care and sacrifice for. I'm tired of sacrificing and coming up empty, no results.