I Can't Hate You Anymore

I'm really mad at myself.

Having a revelation out of whim is just so hectic.
Having impressions about someone I really cared about completely changed doesn't really help. It's times like these when I look back and I call myself idiotic. Blinded by the obvious, now regretting the obvious
Even after how much I convinced myself that I was the good guy, trying to do good, there still is a small twinge in my heart to forgive. I guess hearing the truth really does help soften a heart.
It's funny. From feeling extremely nostalgic to being revealed the truth, it seems like everything was a buildup.
To the person this concerns, I owe you big time.

Little too late now? Who knows

Man In The Mirror - Michael Jackson

I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That's Why I Want You To
Know

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change

Some Mad Hope

Yeah really. Some mad hope.
I don't know why but that album name just really caught my attention.
Oh and the album contains the song I heard earlier at a Japanese food place. I'm quite glad I managed to find it.

I think I give decent advice.

My friend recently broke up with her boyfriend. During lunch she was crying like there was no tomorrow. I haven't been in exactly the greatest mood recently but I still felt horrible that she was there crying - over a relationship.
I couldn't really do much. I'm not super close to this person nor do I know what exactly happened in the relationship.
So I got up, took my pack of napkins from my bag, and gave it to her. Then I told her that it wasn't worth it.


I guess she took those words into her heart. She was feeling much better the next day and she even said I was right. It really isn't worth it.
I'm glad I made someone feel better. I guess the funniest part is I can cheer someone up even though I'm not feeling so great myself.
And I guess the saddest part is the fact that I don't take my own advice.


I never realized how many people hide behind the tears of a clown. In other others, many people put on a fake smile. Deep down inside one might be feeling miserable.
However on the outside they seem to be fine and perfectly joyful.
But hey, kudos to them for being able to keep it in like that.

I recently heard a new song by Elliot Yamin called This Step Alone
Everything in this song relates to one of my relationships with a dear friend. Listening to some of these lyrics really stood out to me cause well... it mirror images the situation
"I saw us break, I watched us fall, it made no sense to me at all"
"Then we'd choose to go our separate ways instead of meeting us half-way. And if I had to choose girl, I'd have you by my side"
"I've been waiting for your mind to change cause it feels so one-sided"
In my heart of hearts, I always knew, this jump was way too far for you"